Camera Therapy — Let’s Blog Off

Growing up in my family, vacation usually meant traveling around the great lakes to photograph lighthouses.  I frequently followed behind my dad with my mom’s SLR camera and lugging camera bags.  Liz and I have continued this tradition.  Sure, the camera is different, the camera bag is a backpack, and everything is digital.  In the summer of 2010, I finally bought a digital SLR camera and a couple of lenses.

We played with this new toy a little bit here and there, but it rarely came out of the bag for nearly 6 months.

What I didn’t know was that this camera was going to play a huge role for both of us in healing from the loss of our daughter.  We both turned to the camera to find perspective in our lives.  We have taken thousands – maybe tens of thousands – of pictures since Samantha’s passing.

The camera allows us to focus on what’s important.  We can crop out the bad parts.  We can take as many shots as it takes to get it right.

The more pictures we take, the easier it is to see things worth remembering.

The camera also insulates us.  It is a physical barrier between us and the cruel reality of being childless parents.

We’ve done a lot more traveling since January 27th, 2011.  We’ve made it a point to go out and experience life.  Even if we just go for a stroll along the Mississippi River, the camera bag is on my back and we are ready to capture life in full color.



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  • Btewes

    Isn’t there a quote about a camera being the window to one’s life?

  • Marit

    Yes! Great post Raun – I totally understand the healing power of photography. Very cool that you took pics with your Dad – and now its something that you and Liz do together.

  • James Dibben

    Good post, Raun!

    I appreciate you both sharing some ways you are dealing with a loss of this magnitude. I am sure others can learn from you.

  • L

    i think it is safe to say that people think about photographs as having recorded a life once lived. i like this purpose to photograph a life being lived; especially one living beyond a significant loss.

    thank you for sharing this.

  • Raun Lauterbach

    I think so. And it’s true if you allow the camera to speak for you.

  • Raun Lauterbach

    I really didn’t expect photography to make that big of a difference. Now I see photographs everywhere I look. It makes things look different. I’m not sure how to explain it…

  • Raun Lauterbach

    I’m learning plenty from it myself to make it more than worth the journey.

  • Raun Lauterbach

    What I find most interesting is that I used to think of pictures as a 2 dimensional representation of something. I’ve come to realize that even if the subject is the same, with the same surroundings, the picture is different. There are things that changed. Maybe the lighting is a little different. Maybe the only change is time. That change in time allows the photographer and those viewing the picture to alter it based on their own experiences. Totally mind-blowing to me. Thanks for stopping by!

  • Riggins Construction

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

  • Robin

    Thank you for sharing.  I am so sorry.  Prayers and peace to you and your wife.

  • Jim

    Very touching and very moving.  They always seem to be meaningful to the ones that view them. But they seem to be especially meaningful to the one who took them.  Often you remember the setting, the circumstances and where you were in the moment.  They’re great to look back and reflect. I’m glad both Liz and you find your own peace in your travels and your pictures.

  • Raun Lauterbach

    Thanks, Dad!

  • Pat Eggleton

    I’m so sorry about your loss. I can understand how the camera is a comfort to you and hope it continues to help you heal. Love to you both from sicily.

  • Raun Lauterbach

    Pat, Robin, and Riggins Construction — Thanks to you all for your condolences. It means a lot to both of us. It’s been quite a rollercoaster, but we can see light through the darkness.